Only a new Beginning..

I wish I would have started this blogging thing ohhh a few months ago but I was not ready I suppose. (Sorry if I am all over the place as I have not yet become an expert at Blogging or writing a book- someday :)
Let's see if I can catch everyone up to date - lots been going on.  Well the start of the story is this... A few days before Thanksgiving of 2009 I was diagnosed with Cervical Cancer- Endocervical Adenocarcinoma to be specific. It is the rarer of the kind and is of the glands as opposed to the squamous cells like the HPV caused kind.  My intution was telling me about this thing called cancer ohhh within the last year. I had some symptoms which indicated something was not normal. I even called the gyno and they said oh its probably nothing... well they were wrong! Always listen to that intution!

The moment I was told I had Cancer was like no other I have experienced.  It was as if I was in a time warp  and the room was spinning around me.  It was just myself and Doctor Falany sitting in the world..  I reacted like most I am sure. pure shock... But at the same time. I knew....something inside of me knew my life was about to get flipped all around ..
The doc was vey compassionate of course- she hugged me while I sobbed.. afterall it was just her and I.
Ok so the first week after that was spent this way- husband and I just standing around staring at eachother and the ground saying..now what...? 

When I had my first appointment with the gynological oncologist, I had already mentioned to him I was not so sure about chemo,radiation etc..
He told me the tumor is 4 cm and too big to operate on initally.. soo they want to do daily radiation for 6 weeks and weekly chemo for 6 weeks.. and then... cut out my womb! Great.. Well not so much.. I knew I was not going to be rushed into this.
Thank God I was told to not be pressured by the urgency the docs would put on me to have things done.
This was my body and my life and I was going to think about this dammit!
So I thought about it..and thought about it... I had my moment with God, if you will.
I was alone and something hit me.. I cried and was afraid. But I knew I had to do this the hard way.. The way that was going to shed my layers and leave me an even better and happier person in the long run.
So the extensive research  began.. I knew that if I were going to refuse conventional medicine I had better get my act together and take this very seriously!
SO the searching on the net and reading lots of books began.

One of the first people God and the angels brought into my life was Jill Hargis (Hallelujah Acres diet Health Minster). She gave me much information on how to alkalize my body etc.. It was overwhelming but I inspiring. She also sent me a movie called "Healing Cancer from the inside out" By Mike Anderson which forever changed me.
I ordered a Champion Juicer (courtesy of Momma) and some Barley Max greens. I gave up smoking about a 4 days or so after my diagnosis. I also gave up red meat,dairy,anything processed,refined anything, sugar, Caffeine, etc.. It was gradual I suppose in case anyone is wondering.  Let me tell you though even a few weeks after giving up all of this my waistline got smaller and my weight dropped a little.. Rock on! Added bonus!  I also read how important it is to exercise (oxygenize the body as cancer does NOT like oxgyen) so I went to Walmart and got me a 30 dollar mini trampoline/rebounder.. Fun stuff!

Onto the DEEP stuff...

One of the first things I realized by reading Louise Hay;s book  "How to Heal Your Life" was that this cancer did not just happen.. It was not just genes,environmental factors,etc.... It was something that most people would not want to deal with when they find out they have cancer. It was..... "Deep  Hurt. Longstanding resentment. Deep Secret or grief eating away at the self. Carrying hatreds. "Whats the Use?"..... Doesnt sound pretty does it?
No it does not but I believe all of this happened so I can get to the core of the beautiful person I am and always was.
I also believe I will be able to use this experience to urge people to deal with the feelings they are carrying around with them from the past so it does not manifest itself into a physical disease.  I will not bore you with the details of the root of it but just know it is a lot of work but gratifying knowing I am capable of releasing any of that unwanted and unhealthy baggage!

 I have to mention Where Miracles Happen which is an amazing Healing Center/Store that has already introduced me to many blessings..  One of the products I used there was the Bemer (see my blog site for website link), an infra red sauna (detoxing among other things), and of course Tai Chi/Yoga with Essud- the most amazing instructor I could ask for! Not to mention a great friend as well that also has believed I can kick this Cancer too!
On that note Carolyn Porter., owner of Where Miracles Happen was the first person to say "You can do this"... She got immediate points in my book for that.. I know it is easier for her to say that since she is not family and does not worry like they might.  Thanks Carolyn for being a believer!  I also did QRA testing (see link on blog site) which got me on some amazing very pure herbal products. 
I am also going to start working at the WMH store starting Feb 5th part time as needed. I am so excited!
I also had the blessing of experiencing a Theta healing session with Isabelle from WMH and the HerbShop in Canton.  Again both life changing experiences!

One of the books I am reading right now which is changing my life by the minute is Bernie Siegel's Love Medicine and Miracles.  Bernie has revealed to me that in order to kick this I need to be what he calls an "Exceptional patient"... that I will be and am!
My momma has been amazingly supportive and open minded throughout this whole thing.
My husband has also been supportive- yet very preoccupied with us surviving financially..  His love and support for me does not go unnoticed. 
I have had some amazing people from my past come out of the woodwork since finding about the big C..
People who were in my past but I did not know really well. I feel very grateful for that blessing too (hopefully you know who you are!)
So I do plan on getting checked on my "progress" with the oncologist reguarly.
In fact I am due for a check up here soon.
The bottom line is this.. am I afraid to Die? No... Death is nothing to be feared- am I ready to die? NOPE
I have much to do on this earth before my time is up..
So thank you for the continued blessings and prayers and look out for more blog posts!!
Love and light to everyone!!!