What a Journey it is has been so far...

Today I sit here and reflect on where I was when I got diagnosed.
I was searching for something.. I did not realize until I was handed the gift of facing my own mortality that what I was seeking was well..God..
Little did I know that amazing light was always within ME.. Its always been there to comfort me since the day I was born. If I would have only known this way back when I was little..but it was not part of my journey to know that up until now. I do not think I was as grateful for things as I am right now. I know I was not as strong,humbled and at peace with things as I am now. Today I embrace that I need to TRUST in the flow of things. Even when there are things I want to control.. I know now that these things are not in my control and that is OK. I can relax more knowing God is taking care of me on my journey. I dont know what your views are on God - a lot of people just dont talk about it.. and then I say why not?
I know God exists- no matter what form that is in.... When I ask God to provide me people and things that will help me on my healing journey with cancer..guess what?? They show up!!!! The amount of times I have asked and then received has really amazed me.
I wrote this today while sitting on the rocks at Lake Erie in Avon Lake (my new peace spot!)

Sitting at Veterans Memorial Park, The water ebbing and flowing brings me so much peace. The gentle breeze on my neck feels like angel kisses. The Sun is like God's light beaming down on me.
Looking out at the vast beautiful water- my heart cries with Joy. Even though this journey has not been easy at times, the glorifying clarity and strengthening of Faith has made it more than worth it!
God has gently spoken to me over the last 9 months. My heart feels the purity of His touch. As the waves break against the rocks I sit on, I am reminded that there can be peace and stillness even when there is commotion surrounding. If we are still, God speaks to our heart.. It is whether or not we hear Him is the question.

Thank you for plugging into my story and believing in me!!!