Gotta have Faith

On this rainy spring day the word Faith is resonating in my heart and mind.
I am reflecting on how the definition of this overused and misunderstood word has changed for me in the last few years. When I was first diagnosed with cervical cancer in November of 09, I really was not aknowledging that God/my creator/Spirit (whatever name you give) was doing the healing..not me!!! I thought ..."hey these other people can heal themselves with alternative means..why not ME??:

All throughout treatments,surgery recovery etc.. I felt as if God was indeed holding me ..carrying me gently through the dark times. I have a flameless battery operated candle that my mother got me from the Christian store. It has on there a quote from the Footprints poem.
" When you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you".
I had that candle "lit" the entire duration I was at the Clinic for surgery in Feb.
It was my visual reminder that God was with me (and my angels and guides).
Before all of these challenges, I had my doubts like most of you that something so invisible could feel so real and so amazing.

Here I sit May 14, 2011- stronger physically,stronger spiritually and mentally.
I take no day for granted.. knowing wow I overcame some pretty hard stuff. If God did not cradle me through it... It would have been so much harder. It makes me wonder how many patients going through cancer lean on this Faith.

So I started praying a lot after even.. and thanking God for my health and marriage as if it were already whole healthy and happy.
One day something changed in my house. I do not know specifically if it was ME just feeling better (so my energy started changing for the better-which affected my relationships) or was it God rewarding me for having Faith and just KNOWING miracles would await me.
Yesterday I had some program on a local tv station that was for young kids talking about bible stories. This one was about Abraham. God rewarded him so many great things once he truly believed in God (had Faith). This story resonated in my heart. It was my sign I think (those of you who really know me..know I am always looking for symbolism and synchronicities in events) that it is God.. :)
By the way..God for me is really in all things. I do not picture a big man on a chair up in Heaven..instead it is more energy based...seen in mother nature,the love in peoples hearts etc.. Its just more all encompassing for me.
It is such a great feeling finally to have a little more energy, be painfree and truly grateful in my heart.
I am feeilng pretty strongly it is my time to pay it forward in someway for all of the generosity that has come my way over the past few years.
I am so humbled by how beautifully supportive everyone has been.
Even those that have not really been close to me (maybe the whole cancer thing makes people uncomfortable and thats ok)- still have sent their love and I have felt it.
I am glad to be back in Cleveland and feeling good just in time for the great weather... Even the cleansing rain :)

I hope this blog stirs up your definition of Faith :)

Love and Light,
Andrea